The Miracle Of One Mind
Multiple Personality Integration
By Phil Scovell
The following true testimony is written with permission. This
event occurred August 14, 2006.
She said, "I hear a man's voice."
This was nothing new. Over the months we had been praying
together, she not only heard many male voices but those voices
surfaced and spoke with me. I said, "Do you know whose voice it is?"
"Yes, but this is something new."
"New, how?" I probed.
"this is the voice of Jesus. Normally it is just an impression
and I interpret by speaking the words myself. This time I really
heard his voice inside of me. It even feels like I am hearing Him in
"What is He saying?" I asked.
"He said it is time."
I wanted to say, "You mean now? Tonight?" I was expecting this
but "Now? Tonight?" I had recognized that the helpers, alternate
personalities of this woman with Dissociative Identity Disorder, had
not been surfacing and becoming a part of our prayer sessions for many
weeks, maybe months, and she had noticed it, too. I had even
detected, although I had not mentioned it to her, that her own
speaking voice had cleared up and sounded very female whereas before,
there was almost a ragged, or tired, sound to the background tone of
her voice. I also did not tell her that the outgoing voice mail
message she had recently recorded on her phone sounded very feminine
and natural. All these signs pointed to the singleness of mind
experience would soon be coming but it still surprised me when it
Secret Holder, her primary alternate personality, and the one who
kept the secrets of the other alternate personalities, surfaced and
began talking to me. "It is ok Mr. Phil. It is time."
I said, "How do you feel about this happening now, Secret
"I feel ok; I feel fine. It will be ok."
"What about all the other helpers?" I asked. "What do they feel
about it happening now?"
"They are all ready and they are fine with it. It is time for
all of us to become one. The little girl is scared a little about it,
though," Secret Holder informed me.
"I know she is but Jesus said she would be ok," I replied.
"I know," Secret Holder said in her little small voice.
Mari began talking to me then. "I see the marble white staircase
that goes up real high."
"Ok," I said. The staircase we had seen before. Jesus had taken
the little girl and all her helpers to the white marble staircase
during a prayer session. All of the helpers, alternate personalities,
walked up the stairs until they were all lost to sight. The little
girl then ran up the stairs and back down again as if she were playing
on the stairs.
"Do you remember the white stairs?" Mari asked.
"I sure do remember them," I replied.
"Well, that's where we are right now. Now all of the helpers are
coming down the stairs," and she named them as they descended.
"They are all down at the bottom now with us. Jesus is here,
"I see a large ornate wooden door. Jesus wants to open it."
"Is that ok with you?" I asked.
"Yes. I want Him to open it. It's open now and the helpers are
all going in one by one." She named each alternate personality as it
passed over the threshold and disappeared beyond the doorway. "the
only one left now is Secret Holder. She walked over and whispered
into my ear and said that Jesus would always be with me now and they
would all be one."
"Wow! this is really weird. I can't explain it exactly but I am
seeing the word GOODBYE and the word HELLO at the same time. Now the
word GOODBYE is fading away and the word HELLO is like it is written
on a wall or something. It has tiny roses all around it and other
vine like things. Now the word HELLO is fading and it feels as if it
is entwining inside of me and my thoughts and becoming a part of me
"Jesus is now hugging the little girl very tightly and telling
her that any times she calls His name, He will be already there by her
and she will never be alone."
"Hey, something is happening."
"What's that?" I asked quietly.
"Something is inside of me; something is going on inside of me."
"Wow! It feels like a garden is growing. It is a garden! It is
growing inside of me. Wow!"
"It is very quiet and silent inside," Mari said. It's never been
like this before."
Mari once told me about the shadow people that used to help her
occupy her time by coming out to play in her thoughts. She knows now
these were her alternate personalities, her helpers, assisting her
with her loneliness and fears.
"I bet it is nice and quiet now," I said thoughtfully, "and
that's a good thing," I finished, as I listen in amazement to what the
Lord was doing.
"Oh. I just heard a little girl's laugh. Wow! That is amazing.
I just heard a little girl do a happy laugh. It is quiet again now."
"Do you know where this door was?" I felt led to ask.
"Yes. I didn't know at the time but I know now where it is."
"It was a doorway into my heart. I can feel it. That's where
all the helpers went."
The psychodynamics of this experience could take volumes so I
won't bother trying to explain everything in detail. Besides, Jesus
isn't the Great Psychologist; He Is The Great I Am. He may use
psychology, medicine, pastors, or even short, balding, chubby Colorado
cowboy preachers like me, for that matter, to work in harmony with
Him. Otherwise, Jesus needs nothing. In fact, I never even prayed
one time with Mari during this experience. I did not pray before,
during, or following the prayer session because it just happened.
Later, as I hung up the phone and walked out of my office into my
home, I said, "Lord, I never even prayed with Mari. I feel terrible."
"Jesus said, "The whole thing, from beginning to end, was a
prayer to me. So what's the big deal?"
I said in my thoughts, "That makes sense. Still, I feel like I
should have done something. At the very least, I should have closed
"What for?" Jesus said in my thoughts. "I don't need your help.
I just let you watch while I did my own work. Isn't that good enough
I laughed. It was true. Jesus didn't need me and He proved it
by letting me sit and listen, ask a few questions, and watch Him
conduct a miracle again. You see, this had not been the first time I
witness the singleness of mind experience of someone with multiple
personalities but it was just as thrilling.
Mari was an orphan and had been born blind. She experienced self
mutilation, had become physically violent at times, became drug
dependant, an alcoholic, went through two years of psychological
therapy for a sex change to become a man, and had been sexually
molested and raped by her father since infancy. Eventually her
brother took over where her father had left off. She was finally able
to escape the horribleness of her childhood by 18 years of age.
Mari also had experienced 36 years of psychiatric care and
nothing but pharmaceuticals for therapy. Most mental health
professionals don't believe a person with multiple personalities can
be treated any other way than with pharmaceuticals. Additionally, the
psychological therapy generally takes on the form of behavioral mental
techniques to teach the person how to keep the alternate personalities
suppressed or, at the very least, under control. This is assuming, of
course, the therapist is even able to identify Dissociative Identity
Disorder in the first place. Few can. Why? Alternate personalities,
the fragmented parts of one's mind due to trauma, have been created to
protect the authentic person. Therefore, they are very unwilling to
communicate with others out of fear they will be discovered and the
real person will be considered a threat, or quite simply, crazy. So,
they remain hidden and few professionals believe they can be reached.
Generally the psychiatric community suggest 10 to 15 years of required
therapy to reprogram a person that is multiple personality. Of
course, these same people are totally unaware that sometimes, quite
often in fact, demons masquerade as alternate personalities. This
makes integration psychologically impossible for the therapist who has
no such Biblical knowledge relating to spiritual authority and demonic
oppression. Likewise, for the Christian therapist, who believes that
alternate personalities are demons and must be cast out, even worse
problems are generated, including more complicated and complex
emotional issues for the DID person.
Mari experienced integration in five months and probably no more
than about sixty hours of actual prayer time. No, I have had no
training in psychology. I am just an intercessor and a pastor whom
Jesus healed and taught how to pray with others. Furthermore, the
Lord assigned, not called, me to minister to sexually abused women and
to those with multiple personalities and to be a father to the
fatherless. By the way, to day, only one of the people I have prayed
with, who are multiple personality, have ever been officially
diagnosed by mental health therapists with DID and that was Mari. Why
so few? For all the reason mentioned above. Furthermore, the helpers
soon realize I enjoy getting to know them and I don't think they are
crazy. I likewise let Jesus answer all of their questions and they
quickly, realizing who Jesus is, come to trust His Word to them as
always being true and He never tries to frighten them.
Now, where are you today? Perhaps you were not sexually abused.
It isn't likely you are DID with alternate personalities. Maybe what
you face has been diagnosed as clinical depression, PTSD, OCD, or any
other various letters of the alphabet. It makes no difference to
Jesus because He knows how to heal every one of the lie based thoughts
that are present in everyone's life. Do you want to be free? Now is
the time. Don't wait because it isn't necessary to keep suffering
alone. There is help from the Greatest Helper of all; Jesus The
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