Do We Really Believe and Why Not?
By George Roberts
I am writing this with the true attitude of how some of us
believe, but do not show or really say but keep it buried, sometimes
possibly for years, until we finally crack. I will say that all in
this article is based on true life experiences.
First I want to address the issue of Jesus Christ as our Lord and
personal savior. I have been saved since I was 18 years old and am 48
years old now. I will give you a brief history of my life and will get
to the jest of the article.
When I was 16 my brother Bill was killed in a motorcycle accident
in Fontana California. He was soon to be 18 in 6 days. My father who's
name was also Bill died when I was 23 and he was 64 and he died of
Cancer. My mother Alice died when I was 28 of pulmonary imbulisom to
the right lung she was 67. Needless to say this was the beginning of
a 3 year spiral of depression that was keeping me at the point of
suicide constantly. I, as do many Christians, just tried to tough it
out and get over it. The depression didn't lift until I was 46 years
old but deep down I constantly had a nagging of my real true
relationship with the Lord and didn't know why. Well next was my
sister Jeanne who passed away of upper raspatory cancer when I was 46
she was 62. Now the straw that broke the camel's back was my daughter
Jennifer that passed away April 11th 2005 she was 23 I am 48. Where is
Jesus? I said where is Jesus? Many of you have been where I have been
and are under so much stress and depression you just can't stand it
anymore.
Let me give you the intent of my article. The Apostles, after
Jesus had been crucified were so depressed and scared they locked
themselves in a room. Sounds like what I did. The reason they did this
is because they thought Jesus was dead and all there hopes were dashed
to pieces. Read the Gospels and you will find this is true. Even
though they had walked with him for 3 and a half years they were still
scared. Why? I will tell you why. They needed a personal encounter
with the Lord. Not just someone telling them about him like Mary
magdalene did. She said I have seen the Lord they did not believe her.
the 2 men on the road to Emmaus saw him and reported what they saw.
They still didn't believe. When did the Apostles believe? When Jesus
appeared to them in the locked room where they were and, Bingo! They
believed because they saw him and were overjoyed he was alive and then
they could believe everything else he had said. Do you think Jesus was
upset because they had to see him to believe? Absolutely not.
Now let's consider another area that preacher's and minister's
have truly, yes I said truly crippled the body of Christ. By saying
things like if you need to see Jesus then, bless God, you don't
believe. Or we walk by faith and not by sight and if you have to see
to believe then you're not a real Christian. Or they will say and talk
about him as if he was the only one that did not believe. None of them
believed until they saw him. Even Paul the Apostle didn't believe
until he saw him. Let's go back to the Apostles and realize that
after they saw Him, they believed. What is wrong with you and I seeing
Jesus in this present day? Absolutely nothing. I have asked him many
times to see him and just the other night an angel appeared on my
side of the bed while I was asleep and my wife saw it. Churches are
crippling the body of Christ by preaching that we don't need
experiences with Jesus just believe. It's not right. He is no
respecter of person's. If he wanted to appear to the Apostles he
wants to appear to you. If you are at a place where I am at now with
all the death that has occurred, then just tell him Lord I need to
see to believe. Forget about what anybody says and even what your
church teaches. Go to Jesus personally and tell him what you need. I
always thought he would get mad at me for asking something like that.
Guess who taught me that rubbish? You guessed it all the well meaning
ministers and preachers. My daughter's passing was the catalyst that
almost drove me out of my mind and caused me to fall into depression
so severe.
I have went through 2 years of intercessory prayer with my
friend Phil Scovell and Jesus came and gave me truth and expelled the
lies of the enemy. He even appeared to me in many of the prayer
sessions which was a great relief to me. If I hadn't gone through
that I surely would have committed suicide at the passing of my
daughter. I never dreamed we would be without our daughter. Yes she
is in Heaven but you know I live here and it's tough without her. And
I will tell you why. I am not Mr. Spiritual as some try to be and
then crash and burn. I have told the Lord I need to see you like the
Apostles saw you and he is not mad at me and I am not ashamed to have
asked him. I pray this will take some of you to a place you will ask
the Lord to give you what you need because you are struggling so
hard. If you want to call my friend Phil and ask him about me please
do so. He has been where I have been also.
Now for the scriptural references to prove what I have said:
Luke 24 the whole chapter John 20 and 21 the whole chapter Mark 16
the whole chapter Acts chapter 9 the whole chapter 1st Corinthians
9:1 Acts 7:55-60.
Sincerely; Your faithful brother and servant to Jesus,
George S. Roberts
Safe Place Fellowship
Phil Scovell
Denver, Colorado
Mountain Time Zone
Phone: 303-507-5175
Web: www.SafePlaceFellowship.com
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