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39 Baby Jesus By Phil Scovell I prayed with Mari the other day. She started out by expressing the depression she had recently been feeling. This was nothing new, of course, because she had lived with depression for her entire life and she is 53 years of age. This also was not the only diagnosed disorder she had in her life either. We would run out of the alphabet if I listed them all. This particular day, however, she was explaining that the depression felt different and it somehow seemed to be connected with her eating habits and especially with her diabetes. Knowing nothing about psychology and knowing nothing other than how to pray, I suggested we just pray about it and see where the Holy Spirit led. The minute we prayed, she saw herself as a little girl at the table eating a meal with her family. She explained that her mother had been bulimic but sometimes they ate lavishly and sometimes they ate minimally based upon how her mother felt at the time. Almost immediately, the Lord exposed the lie she believed and that was, she had exchanged love for food. You see, she was a child that was constantly molested from infancy, to her teen years, by both her father and brother. She never knew what love really was. She eventually equated food with love because, she explained, she enjoyed the time eating with her family since that was when things were ok and safe and peaceful. You may be wondering if there is more to it, that is, the fact a little girl somehow got the eating of food mixed up with love? The answer is, yes, there was more and lots of it. She began having seizures as a small little girl. Add to this all the physical and mental and emotional abuse, and you have a fine recipe for not only psychodynamic abnormalities but spiritual as well. What do I mean when I say spiritual ramifications? There is a demonic realm, they live in a different dimension than we, and they love to use opportunities of disabilities, confusion, and emotional distortion to implant lies and deception within the minds of little children. Yes, they try doing it with adults, too, but the adult mind is much more developed and can often think more rationally through the deception without a lie being accepted as fact. Little Children do not have this capability and thus are perfect targets for both abuse in the physical realm and the demonics which interface to the spiritual realm and into the emotional. Where might such mind activity occur? In our thoughts, of course, which is the same place where the Holy Spirit speaks to us. Does this mean, since demons can speak to us in our thoughts that we can be demon possessed? No, of course not. In a real sense, if you are born again, you are possessed, or indwelled, by the Holy Spirit. He lives, dwells, within your human spirit which has, at the moment of salvation, been created anew. That makes it possible for the Holy Spirit to literally, not mystically, dwell within you. Therefore, demon possession is literally, and spiritually, absolutely impossible. Our minds, however, are not redeemed, or to use a good old theological term, regenerated, as of yet. That day is coming and at that same time, even our physical bodies will be redeem, glorified, and we will not only see Jesus as He really is right now, but we will be exactly like Him, (See First John 3:2). As I prayed with Mari concerning the shift in her depression she felt, emotionally, the lie which was suddenly revealed by the Lord. Because her little girl's mind became adapted to the lie that food was good and nobody hurt her during meals, she believed the lie that "This must be what love is all about." She embraced it. In turn, this allowed a demonic presence a lying spirit, to function, within limitations, in her thoughts for years. No, they don't care how old you are or how young, you might be. In fact, the younger the better, because, as I have stated, the mind of a child is easier to fool than that of an adult. In Mari's case, and this isn't by any means the rule of thumb, a demon was involved. How do I know? He presented himself and spoke through Mari's own voice to me. What did he say? He said I couldn't make him leave. Of course, I wasn't interested in what he thought, I was only interested in what Jesus thought. So I asked Jesus if it was true that He, meaning Jesus, could not send this demon away. Yes, I know the demon said that I couldn't send him away, but I always defer all such statements to Jesus since Jesus is the one in charge in the first place. Of course, Jesus said the demon was a liar so I sent him away in the name of Jesus and, yes, he left immediately. Why? Because he had to. There is no higher authority than Jesus. Demons know this. Do you? This allowed Mari, who was remembering what it was like to enjoy a meal with her family and how good the food tasted and that this must be the meaning of love, to now hear the voice of the Lord clearly and, yes, she did. Now, I realize those of you who believe this sort of thing is guided imagery, lucid dreaming, mental theatrical suggestiveness, visualization, EMDR, hypnosis, or other mind manipulating techniques, aren't going to accept how Jesus healed this woman from this lie that had controlled her entire life so you might as well stop reading right now. Those of you who, on the other hand, have even the tiniest of belief that Jesus still works in the hearts and minds of His own children today, will want to keep reading. Mari often hears from the Lord in unusual ways and generally a few minutes after the prayer time. As we were talking about the lie and how she had been deceived by the Enemy, she suddenly interrupted me and told me something was happening. First, a dolly, her words, which was her favorite as a child, appeared in her hands. She then reported that Jesus was there and she could see herself as an adult. Suddenly, she was holding a baby in her arms. When she looked, it was herself. Momentarily, the image of herself as a baby in her arms switched and it was baby Jesus in her arms. This role reversal continued for awhile as we talked and, in fact, has never actually stopped, that is, every time her mind goes to this area of healing, herself as a baby in her arms, and the baby Jesus, keep appearing and changing places. I have had a similar experience and I have written about it called "I Flew Kites With Jesus." My healing, in one particular place, keeps repeating itself every time I have a memory relating to that experience of healing which is often. What does all this mean? My guess is about as good as yours. I personally see it is a matter of identity. In my case, I know that is exactly what it is. I believe the Lord was showing Mari the truth about love and how it really is. Why the baby Jesus? This happened in December. The Christmas holidays are times of depression and sadness for many people. Isn't this just some figment of her imagination? Could be, of course, but her depression is gone and hasn't returned so how do you explain that? No, silly. Demons don't do such things even to deceive. They can't because their thinking is corrupt and they do evil; not good. So who is Jesus to you? Do you know His love or have you been tricked and misled and disoriented by the Enemy in believing that Christmas is something different than it really is? Isn't it about time you discovered why you feel lonely, discouraged, and frightened at the very thought of the Christmas season? It is time for you to change sides. Jesus is very near. Wouldn't you love to hold the baby Jesus? I sure would.