CHAPTER 15 TRAPPED BY DEMONS
THE DECEITFULNESS OF SIN
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CHAPTER 15 TRAPPED BY DEMONS
When I was 14 years of age, I committed a sin which effected me
for my entire adult life. I knew I was forgiven but the guilt
followed me mentally and emotionally in my Christian walk with the
Lord. It even made me do things I did not want to do. I carried this
guilt through every phase of ministry the Lord led me, I awakened with
it, slept with it, ate with it, and was even reminded of it during
times of worship in church. I hated myself for what I had done and
yet I knew God had forgiven me. Some will say I was just 14 and was
spiritually immature. Perhaps, but what I did was still sin. It
created enormous spiritual pain which existed perpetually and
translated out into every area of my entire life. The horrible memory
pictures of what I had done flashed into my memory hundreds of times
over the years. If I was no longer guilty because I was forgiven by
God, why did it keep returning? I confessed it as sin hundreds of
times, if not thousands, throughout my life. I even went to the other
person who was involved, confessed my sin, and asked for their
forgiveness. They quickly forgave me and they have never brought it
up again. Yet I still wasn't free. Yes, the guilt diminished in
intensity at times over the years because I buried it heavily with
lots of Scripture, church activities, and Christian faithfulness of
every sort. It even became spiritually tolerable the older I became.
Yet when I went to that memory at any given time, the pain was still
strongly there and the guilt was powerful. It also popped up without
warning and when it did, it was almost like a sharp physical pain.
When I was first introduced to the type of intercessory prayer to
which I have been referring in this booklet, the Lord took me to this
painful, festering, malignant, despicable, spiritual excruciating,
disgraceful, hideous, malevolent, destructive, perpetual debilitating
memory. It was the last place I wanted to go in my life. Something
miraculous happened, however, when the Lord took me there. One thing
I have learned is that whatever memory I go to in my life, the Lord
Jesus is already there waiting for me. In this case, once I arrived
in the memory, the Lord took me to other related memories and then
took me back to the original. How did all this occur? Through simple
normal basic prayer. It wasn't anything mystical; it was just God
taking me to memories that were corrupted with spiritual woundedness.
In this particular memory, the Lord showed me two very important
things. First, he showed me I was demonically trapped by this event.
Deep down inside, I had always felt I would never amount to anything
spiritually, or be able to really fulfill the will of God for my life,
due to this sin. The Lord revealed this was a demonic lie and I was
instantly set free. I was still confused, however, and so I prayed
and asked the Lord why I had committed this sin even when I knew it
was wrong. The Lord simply said, because you were demonically
deceived. The spell or curse or hex or whatever you want to call it,
was instantly broken. Why? Because I heard the truth of the Lord
Jesus Christ. "And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make
you free," (John 8:32). Yes, I know this is in reference to the
Gospel and who Jesus really is but the principle is applicable to
everything Jesus speaks; "the truth shall make you free." The word
used in this passage for "free" literally means to be completely
delivered. Isn't that interesting? Isn't that what we are really
looking for in our walk with the Lord?
Additionally, it says in John 8:36. "If the Son therefore shall
make you free, ye shall be free indeed." The word for "free" in this
passage is slightly different than the word for "free" used in John
8:32 and literally means "no longer to be a slave." The word "indeed"
means "in reality" or "in point of fact." In other words, it is done.
I was wonderfully and eternally set free by the Lord Jesus and that
memory event no longer has any effect on me. How do I know? I can
return, at any time, to that memory and there is no pain and no guilt.
In short, I have been forgiven and set free and so can you. I trust
now you can see how your guilt and doubts and worries and concerns and
shame and bitterness can be eliminated permanently and the voices can
be silenced. It is time for you to stop suffering and to fulfill the
will of God He has for your life. He has made a way.
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